Wednesday, January 22, 2014

No Hope for Humanity?


“You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty. [And that which is dirty can become clean.]”
       - Mohandas K. Gandhi

This past month I have been reflecting heavily on how corrupt humanity seems to be.  No matter where I turn I see people doing evil, negative, or stupid things. 
I’ve seen a YouTube video of a young woman chucking yelping, baby puppies into a river as if they were merely rocks.
I’ve heard of a horrific videotaping of three guys brutally murdering an innocent man with a hammer in the middle of the woods. 

I see people that I know constantly making stupid decisions that ruin their lives and their health.

I hear of a six month year old child contracting HIV from being sexually abused by family members.

I see commercials on television showing impoverished children with bloated bellies and bare feet.
I hear of all the government scandals and the endless corruption that is present in our politics.

When does it end?
I’m sickened by how fellow human beings can commit such atrocities to themselves and to others.  Do the people who commit these disgusting crimes really have no sense of respect for life, others, and themselves?  Where is their humanity?  Where is their self-control?
What really scares me is the fact that I, along with many others, often stand on the sidelines watching all these atrocities, perhaps with a sense of pity and sympathy, but remain stagnant nonetheless.  In some’s defense, perhaps they remain inactive because they are oblivious to many of the evils of the world, or, maybe they are aware, but are not positive on what action to take.  Many others are fully cognitive of the evil around them, but are too selfish or lazy to take any real action.  Albert Einstein once brilliantly stated: “The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing.”

My hope in humanity, to say the least, has been fading fast. 

The other day, however, I came across a quote (which is displayed at the beginning of this post—which, if you just skimmed over it, go back and really reread it.) from Mohandas Gandhi, one of my favorite historical figures of all time.  As I was drinking in this wise man’s simple words, it really hit me.
 
Yes, there are a lot of “bad” people out there who do bad things. 

There is a ton of corruption .

A plethora of negativity.

An endless amount of stupidity.

And plenty of evil.

But, even with all this bad present in the world, there is also good.

There are people who are passionate about and respect life—whether human or not.

There are people who desire to bring an end to corruption.

There are people who are honest and have characters of integrity.

There are people who are generous.

There are people who make wise decisions.

There are people who are good.

I think I sometimes focus too much on all the bad things/people in the world that I lose track of all the good things/people that also populate our vast planet.  As Gandhi said, even though there may seemingly be a multitude of “dirty drops” present in a body of water, that doesn’t mean that the ocean in its entirety is dirty or corrupt. 

Very slowly, I’m beginning to regain my faith in humanity and starting to perceive all the good and beauty that is still plentiful in the world and also in fellow human beings.

I’m going to conclude this blog post with the wise, straightforward words of the Chinese philosopher Confucius:

“Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.”

Monday, January 6, 2014

Looking Back: 2013

As I was mindlessly browsing Facebook for the zillionth time and creepily Facebook stalking people—*cough* I mean scrolling through people’s profiles—*cough*, I came across “year in review” where you can review your 20 biggest moments of the past year.  Since 12:00 a.m. on January 1st marked the time where we can finally swap our calendars for new ones, I thought it appropriate to do a flashback and review some of my most monumental events that have occurred throughout the year of 2013. 

Here are my biggest moments of 2013 in list form (I’m a bit obsessed with neatly organized lists):

January:  January was just an all-around good month.  I got my driver’s permit—late, I know—and hit the roads for my very first time (and I didn’t cause any serious accidents!).  I also started pointe which, for those of you who don’t know, is when ballerinas go up on their toes in special, padded shoes.  Although watching ballerinas en pointe is stunning, beautiful, and graceful, I discovered that this was not for me.  My two big toenails turned black and blue after I started pointe and it became really painful to go up in my shoes.  After a couple months, my toenails finally fell off (gross, I know); however, they have since then fully recovered and now I can look down at my feet and not be disgusted by my uneven and calloused nail beds. 
February:  Florida!  February was a wonderful month.  I was invited by my friend to go on a vacation with her and her family to Florida.  I spent over a week basking in warm sunshine on Florida beaches, drinking butter beer at Hogwarts in Universal’s Harry Potter World, shopping in the beautiful city of St. Augustine, touring one of Thomas Edison and Henry Fords’ many houses, eating delicious ocean cuisine, and just simply enjoying not being in freezing cold, snow-laden Western New York.  
Highlight of the trip: we spent a night outside of St. Augustine at a slightly-shady hotel, and there was a shooting during the night (calm your horsies, no one died).  Police came knocking on our hotel room door the next morning asking if we had heard anything, and we found out that there was this armed car hijacker (If I am remembering correctly) and that a cop had luckily shot him first in either the arm or leg before the criminal could hurt anyone. 
A very thrilling experience that made for some good, if not slightly-exaggerated stories to tell when I got home.
March: March was an emotionally mixed up month.  This was the month where I received a letter from SUNY Geneseo, the college I planned on attending, that said that I had been accepted for the spring semester but not for the fall semester, and I was put on a waitlist.  The big reason why I was waitlisted was because of my not-so-great SAT scores. 
Just to rant a little bit…I believe SAT scores, although a somewhat accurate standard to see how most students will later perform in college, are not accurate for all people.  According to my SAT scores, I would be doing rather poorly in college with C’s and probably some D’s.  However, in actuality, I made it on the Dean’s List with two A’s and two A-‘s.
 I am not good at taking standardized tests.  My hands sweat and my heart begins to race just thinking about them—I mean, it is basically crammed down your throat since ninth grade that SATs are these all-powerful, 5-hour long examinations that ultimately decide whether you get to go to a prestigious university, or if you have to settle for a college with a lower reputation.
 That is scary. 
Especially since many colleges and universities like SUNY Geneseo put a huge emphasis on SAT scores and do not put as much of an emphasis on the other four years you have been in high school.  I mean, really?  How is that fair?  I have a good work ethic and involve myself in extracurricular activities, and I get waitlisted because I do poorly on a freaking five-hour test?  Uhggg…our education system is so frustrating sometimes!
Ok, my rant is over.        
On a more positive note, my eighteenth birthday was this month! 
One last thing that happened this month was that I got to travel to Washington, D.C. for my very first time on a school fieldtrip.  Although the cherry-blossomed city was absolutely beautiful and all the monuments, museums, and Smithsonians were super interesting—I discovered that I have developed a loathing for the Capital Building. 
Why?
BECAUSE THEY MADE ME THROW AWAY MY UNOPENED PACKAGES OF GRANOLA BARS AND MY SIX PACK OF JUICE BOXES!!!   
…I won’t rant anymore about this because, if I do, I am afraid I might chuck my laptop across the room and turn into a screaming banshee….
April:  I headed to Washington D.C. again this month on my senior trip!  This was a total blast.  Not only did I get to go tour D.C. with its multitude of museums and monuments, take a cruise on Baltimore harbor, and hang out at the Great Wolf Lodge, but I got to do this with all my friends.  Fun times, fun times.
May: April showers bring…prom corsages! (Isn’t that clever?  I thought of that all by myself!) 
My second and final senior prom was a lot of fun, and I rocked a blue Cinderella-esque ball gown (that I got for free btw…not to brag or anything).  However, there were no Prince Charmings or glass slippers for me, but I still had a blast with all my girls.
May was also the month I found out I got accepted to SUNY Geneseo for the fall semester!
The end of May was when I had my final spring dance showcase.  I got my first lyrical/contemporary solo that I choreographed myself (I danced to “Shake It Out” by Florence and the Machine).  That was an exciting/scary/thrilling/I’m-surprised-I-didn’t-fall-of-the-stage-and-break-my-face moment.
June:  A very bitter-sweet month.  This was the month when I graduated high school.  Although I am glad I don’t have to eat suspicious cafeteria food anymore, I don’t ever have to take a class with Hitler *cough* I mean one of my old, evil teachers who-shall-not-be-named *cough* again, and I don’t have to ride an ugly, yellow school bus with screaming, satanic children, I do miss many things about high school.
Going to Fillmore in tenth grade was one of the best decisions (if not the best) of my life.  If it wasn’t for Fillmore, I would not have been able to go on all the wonderful trips I have went on, done all the extracurricular activities I did, gotten the scholarships I have received, be going to SUNY Geneseo (and I wonder if I would be attending college at all), and, most importantly, I would not have met all the amazing people I have.  The teachers and faculty at Fillmore are so compassionate, caring, intelligent, and just all around wonderful human beings.  I also am lucky to have been surrounded by a great group of classmates.
In conclusion: Fillmore School is where I made some of my best memories; rock on Eagles!
July: So, instead of taking an epic road trip or doing other cool things the summer before college started, I took a summer college General Psychology class with one of my best friends.  As lame as taking college classes during the summer sounds, I actually really enjoyed it.  Our professor was really laidback and awesome, and I just personally find the subject of the human psyche highly fascinating.
July is also the month when I decided to stop eating meat and become an herbivore.  I’m really glad I made this decision, and I am thus far sticking with it.  Surprisingly, being a vegetarian is a lot easier than I would have imagined.
August: College starts!  AHHH!  This is when I officially became a responsible, mature, and respectable adult. 
Haha.
Yeah, no…
But it doesn’t mean I turned into a crazy, up-all-night, party-hardy-er either.
In actuality, I spent many of my Friday nights at home snuggled in bed with my cat while watching Netflix with a cup of green tea and a jar full of Nutella.
Don’t judge.
September:  This month was basically about getting used to college life and all the changes that come with it.  I got heavily addicted to caffeine this month.  I have always been a tea drinker, but college life often requires a heavier dosage of that addicting little substance than tea can offer, and, with a Starbucks on campus, it’s hard not to get a cup of Joe at least once a day…or twice…or thrice.  
Thrice is such a fun word.
Another thing that happened was that I got my hair cut this month and swapped my side-swept bangs for some fringe.  I like them, and I have gotten compliments on my cut, but I’m still suspicious that I might look a bit like a toothbrush…hmmm….
October: 
Midterms. 
Eww. 
In all seriousness, I don’t actually remember much of what happened this month.  All that I can think of is that I had my first experience with college examinations this month and the rest is a total blur.
November:  I went to my first club this month.
I’m so BA, I know.
Although I did expect the club to be a bit shady (I mean, it is a club/bar after all), it was a little more scandalous than I thought it would be.  All that I can think of to best describe the club’s atmosphere is the pool/weird-looking-floaty/orgy scene from the film Titus which is based off of a tragedy by Shakespeare called Titus Andronicus.
If you don’t know what I’m talking about…don’t worry, you really don’t want to. 
Perhaps I’m just really oblivious/naïve/innocent, but I’m really hoping that the next time I decide to go out dancing, I will find clubs that will be a little more classy (if it is even possible for a club to be deemed “classy”).  
Thanksgiving was this month!  Which, kind of sucked in a lot of ways since almost every Thanksgiving dish consists of some type of animal flesh—stuffing, gravy, the freaking turkey—however, I surprisingly didn’t starve and managed to actually eat a very delicious, vegetarian-friendly Thanksgiving meal.
December: I’m done! 
I seriously don’t know how I managed to survive my first semester of college with as little mishaps as I did.
But I did it!
And I finished off the semester with a 3.85 GPA.  Not too shabby.
And Christmas was this month! 
Which…do I even have to say any more?

Okay, that basically sums up 2013 for me. 


*Please excuse my long rant for the month of March.